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| How do you recover from sadness or anger or even disappointment? Do you tend to find someone to talk to or even to cry on? Or, do you tend to lock yourself up? It sounds kind of cliché to say that I am the type that tends to shut off and push people away when I am trying to sort out my own emotion. I always wonder and especially now, how did others take it. Honestly, I don't know. I have had people just let me alone, but I never know whether that actually impacted the relationship. I know it didn't for my relationship with my family members, but I can't tell for others. I am still wondering....
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| I really quite satisfied with the car -- 2006 Chevy Malibu LT that I got earlier this year. The only complain that I have is that it 'shocked' me every single time I get off the car and touch the door. Since I have been 'shocked' repeatedly, if you were to be on the spot, you can tell that I am so reluctant to close the door everyday. The image of animal experiment keeps popping into my head every time I was in that situation =P | | |
| Yesterday, I decided to do something to undo my 'blah' feeling. And, it works! I went shopping --- the ultimate love of women and sometimes men too. Bought quite a few pieces of clothing and then I sent my sister a gift. Sent her vitamin D and some other stuff that I could find in my apartment. I think being Malaysians, we are so used to the year long sun exposure and the gloomy weather starting from fall is really affecting our mood. Hopefully the vitamin D will be somewhat useful as she has quite a busy schedule. I also finished a puzzle that I bought long time ago that has an Americana theme. Even though it's a 500-piece-puzzle, its final dimensions only comes up to 11"x18". I was told that my mentor is going to come to the office tomorrow. It has been almost 4 months since he took on his 1-year-vacation. I wonder whether he is coming in to check on me, making sure that I didn't totally screw up his project =P My parents are coming in a month! It just feels kind of surreal as I still remember planning it a while back and thinking that it's still a long way out. I told my boss that I am going to take a week off and work half time for the remaining two weeks. And, the first thing that he asked me is whether I have enough vacation. I told him I do and he said it's fine. Actually, I was really tempted to ask whether I can take three weeks off with unpaid leave, but I just couldn't bring it up. I feel like I should get on studying for LEED exam, but I totally doesn't have the motivation. I wonder what is going to happen two years from now when I can actually take the PE exam. Hm....
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| I am sick of feeling crappy !!! Think too much, worry too much and care too much.
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| I guess my site visit went pretty well. It seems like I have always been lucky in a way that I happened to be able to help the guys on the field to correct errors in the very beginning of the process, which makes them totally apologetic. Maybe they would be nice to me anyway, but I feel that because of the incident, they treat me much nicer even though I am just an inexperienced engineer trying to learn about my job. So, I really think a great relationship with the people on the field is bound to make my life easier in the future. Apparently, there are many people in other disciplines that think otherwise.
Feeling "blahhh..." at work because the person-in-charge of the project is micro-managing and doubting the need of the effort that I put in the project. I really think the people on the field appreciates the fact that we are reasoning with them instead of just telling them off. And, I totally can gather that from chatting with the superintendent. I seriously hope the issue will get resolved as soon as possible once the senior engineer is back in the office. I do feel grateful that my colleagues are being super supportive and relentlessly assuring me that I am doing a good job. Just couple weeks earlier, an engineer in my office resigned and from what I gathered, he was given the option of either being fired or resigning because his last project didn't turn out too well at the end. It was a shock to me and it definitely reminds me of how competitive the field is and if I want to stay put, I definitely need to be on par with other colleagues.
Enough of rambling and I guess it's time to clean up my apartment before another week begins. I am never used to the idea of considering Sunday as the starting day of a week. Oh well, I guess it doesn't matter either way.
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